what a miserable countenance
that I should be staring into the abyss
what a terrible thought it is
that a world should be designed like this
what a cold realisation
that all things should die
I would sooner find an answer
than continue to be asking why
The wild birds
There are places where the wild birds sing
Between dead flowers, nightmares, nothing
There are rusted cages, where hearts were kept
Some things can be paid, but never this debt
There are only bitter thorns
Where once roses were in bloom
The dreams of an eternity
Now intertwined with doom
There are rivers there
Filled with lovers lost souls
Drowning beneath the waves
Like broken paper dolls
Those of us
We are the lost,
The sullen, angry and confused
The ones too weary to concede
And too angry to lose
We are the broken
Built of flesh and decay
The things that are never wanted
We try to leave, and yet we always stay
We are the lonely
Dejected, defeated and betrayed
Trying so hard to find our way home
From the paths on which we strayed
We are the stitches
The bonds that cover the wounds
We are the ones who remember
The things that we wanted to lose
We are the dreamers
The forgotten names of friends
We are the slipping wheels of time
That meet a bitter end
We are too stupid to learn
Always to dumb to steal
We are the buried secrets
Thar society would conceal
We are the whispers
Trembling lips hesitate to speak
We are the strong, the honest
In a world that has grown too weak
Moments
Every time I lie awake
The sheets covering me
Staring at the ceiling
The shouting that came before
The empty hours of the night
I won’t take this anymore
Every time I stare at the mirror
I don’t recognise the face i see
I don’t know why I stick around
Why I let you do this to me
Every feeling crawling around my head
I’m lying here awake in bed
So many whys and nothings
The feelings aren’t dying, they’re dead
Are you awake, i can hear you breathe
Are you dreaming, my beautiful disease
You’re only love me
When I’m down on my knees
Eclipse
There so many things you never needed to say
So many actions we never needed to take
If it’s no ones fault the who can I blame
For all the times my heart had to break
There’s just so many ways we never needed to be
Now i just feel stupid, broken and empty
It doesn’t matter, you never have to believe me
It’s just life I guess, not some happy ending on TV
Feel like the sun has been eclipsed
And it’s just the light that I miss
She said that she hates me with her eyes
And I was just too stupid to realise
It wasn’t anything in particular
Just one too many goodbyes
Sober
I can’t be sober anymore
Where are you when I need you
Im standing knocking at the door
Im just not the man I was before
I’m staring through the bottle
My reflection a fucked up mess
Cross examinations in my head
I confess, Just give it a rest
I know it’s all broken
I’m running out of luck
I’m trying so very hard
Just to not give a fuck
I’ve heard it all before
And seen it break like glass
I’m trying to be still and know
Praying this too shall pass
Holding on
I’m alive but a ghost
A shadow of who I once was
I miss the colours of the world
And the sounds there once were
I look at the life I had
And now that everything is gone
I walk around like a faceless corpse
And try figure out how to carry on
15;30
No one is perfect
We all die, this I know
We will all get old
But I don’t want to alone
Random rant
I’ll say it when you won’t
I give a fuck what anyone thinks
I won’t play it when you will
Just because your attitude stinks
I won’t play games
Or stick around as second best
We are what we are
I can smell the bullshit on your breath
Leave the games for the kids
And the silly little innuendos
Round and round and round again
Where it stops no one knows
I got one life
A finite amount of time
I won’t waste yours
Don’t go wasting mine
Memoirs of a sinner 