I can’t end it, I know where I’ll goAnd frankly I just don’t have the rightBut man I got to tell youI’m losing the will to fight My heart’s a graveyardIt’s just bones of the pastA valley of broken promisesDreams that didn’t lastThe Lord givesThe Lord takes awayJust what else is thereLeft to say?I didn’t come here to plead my caseThe prosecution needs to restI have no words left to sayNo right to a defenceAnd even thoughI sought the blessing with tearsWhat is done cannot be undoneAnd no return on the wasted yearsThere’s no weddingBut rather an endless wakeInch by inch it all gets closerAnd soon it will break

4

Four, always four

The endless insanity of the infinite

I stood, looked to see

I opened up the door

Again, four

Never more, just four

Repeat like a broken record

The static hiss that begins just before

Stained carpets, muddy floor

Empty coffee cups

Cigarette burns on the curtain

Please, please, no more

Screaming in the dark like a broken doll

All the pieces of the mirror

Shattered on the floor

Please, not more, just four

But not anymore

17:50

I’m tired of death

Like 16:30 in a crack house

Yellow, fading light of dusk coming

Cigarette burnt lace curtains
I’m tired of life

Lungs filled with ash and dust

Reflected life in broken windows

Diseased, unable to move 
I’m tired of staring at the ceiling

Waiting for the same damaged dawn

Pieces of dreams litter the floor

Staining the carpets with memory
I’m drowning, I don’t care

I’m at the inevitable collapse

Diluted, a dirty blocked drain

I woke here in the dirt

here in the dirt I remain

21:39

There’s a certain freedom
In realising who you are
Yet at that time too you find yourself in chains
As the light appears in which you can see
So a new darkness consumes you
Till the emptiness is all that remains

A realisation, that all is for nothing
That every dream, desire and memory
Is a pointless moment in eternity
That the love, possessions and purpose
Are no more than a misleading illusion
And life is nothing but temporary