Tag: anguish

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Deep in the morning light
All our secrets were let out
And it was then you couldn’t stay

The doors to your heart closed
And still I don’t know why
What caused the distance between you and I?

It was easier to walk away
To destroy my world at the break of day
Is this all there is to life?

The nights come, the seasons change
And still I see your face
Each and every F#@king place

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Lost


I’m lost, neither here nor there

Beyond the arms of reality

The June black sun

We’re always lost here

So happily torn in two

An equation never being solved

The illusion of beauty

Where nothing is ever true

Forgive these transgressions

All I ever do is sin

Is there nothing I can do

To stop learning the same lessons

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4


Four, always four

The endless insanity of the infinite

I stood, looked to see

I opened up the door

Again, four

Never more, just four

Repeat like a broken record

The static hiss that begins just before

Stained carpets, muddy floor

Empty coffee cups

Cigarette burns on the curtain

Please, please, no more

Screaming in the dark like a broken doll

All the pieces of the mirror

Shattered on the floor

Please, not more, just four

But not anymore

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17:50


I’m tired of death

Like 16:30 in a crack house

Yellow, fading light of dusk coming

Cigarette burnt lace curtains
I’m tired of life

Lungs filled with ash and dust

Reflected life in broken windows

Diseased, unable to move 
I’m tired of staring at the ceiling

Waiting for the same damaged dawn

Pieces of dreams litter the floor

Staining the carpets with memory
I’m drowning, I don’t care

I’m at the inevitable collapse

Diluted, a dirty blocked drain

I woke here in the dirt

here in the dirt I remain

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The last


We are nothing but desperately cold

Shivering in the damp surround

There are lullabies for suffering

They sing when we are below the ground

We stand and whisper between the graves

We burn the candles for love that never came

We long and whimper and I forget my name

I am all that I never was only the shame

We stand in rows of middle class

We bow and wish for nothing that could last

We dream in other colors and different hues

We long for nothing only the past

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22:07


Bob Dylan said there must be some way out

Yet still there is none I can find

The walls are lined with broken dreams

And horrors that are yet undefined 

I have re-runs under my eyelids

Stains on what once was clean

Remembering the burns and aches

Of a life that could not have been

I am lost and so very hopeless

Like a room in the Chelsea hotel

Seems I only rented a room in Heaven

But I bought a house in hell